Sometimes a memory or an idea feels like a punch in the face to me because it’s like the thought hits me in the head with no warning. I had this happen to me the other day when I was wearing orange, hanging out with @wilkkrate And remembered that I have been using orange since my first semester in the MFA (masters of fine art). I’m in semester 4 now and orange has come back in a really big way.
Here are a few images of my work from most recent back to first semester masters.
First photo taken by @wilkkrate and last photo taken by @krapski
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Today is a big day. Monkeys eye fell out last week and it was very devastating for me.
He has always been there for me since we found each other when I was 2 years old and stole him from a shop in Germany. Every time I didn’t get invited to participate with other kids when I was younger, every time I have has a bad day, a meltdown, anxiety, sensory overload, monkey has always been there for me to listen, support and cuddle.
He is getting very old now and I’ve realised that he has really done the job of an assistant dog my whole life. He’s at least 30 now and is disintegrating before my eyes and touch.
@teddy_of_cameron_slice is taking us to the doll hospital today, which will be monkeys second time there. I haven’t been able to be with him for a week and it’s been really hard and caused a lot of meltdowns. Luckily I made my blob just before his eye came out. I’ll have to leave him at the doll hospital for a few days. Teddy and my dad understand how hard this is and how much harder meltdowns are without monkey.
Give him good luck!
Here are some photos of monkey and I over the years including a family photo with my mum, dad, brother and monkey.
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Me with my sticks. Photo by @_imm.s
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Recovering from a meltdown on my bedroom floor with my blob today.
Sometimes it’s just one of those days where I learn that years of learnt expectations of masking my autism can backfire.
Now people are much more aware of autism they give me permission to be autistic and say I don’t need to mask in front of them. Sometimes I find people don’t understand that when something is ingrained muscle memory that it’s not as simple as an on/off switch. I’m also aware that when people get to know me with my masks on, they sometimes don’t recognise me with my masks off.
I want to thank @teddy_of_cameron_slice and @nikki_symz for there support today. People I can truely be autistic with after years of conversations and support.
I also want to thank @wilkkrate for getting ice cream with me post meltdown and helping distract me from my anxiety.
Also my favourite ice cream shop @billyvancreamy for being the most accessible ice cream shop in Melbourne with damn good ice cream!
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A pile of sticks in my studio. I’m really enjoying the process of this work. It’s activating my widened sensory perception and extended detailed focus!
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Flash back to @mca_australia Art Bar Feb when I performed my work “Syndrome Rebel”. One of the beat experiences of my life sharing stimming with an audience and not feeling one negitive vibe towards my autisticness in the whole room. I finished and the word people used to discribe the work was “joy”. So happy to have and share a good stimming experience with @mca_learning
Photo by George and @turbly - thanks for your support!
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Wrapping sticks and hanging out with my blob #ilovebeingautistic #actuallyautistic